So, as it seems in the case of our wonderful blog-sites; peer pressure is actually benefiting us!!! I am so pleased that we have been able to encourage one another to give up "something" in dedication to each others efforts......So, in honor of Cherry and the rest of you, my "no chocolate" plan is still in motion.
Here's where I'm at today: I struggle back and forth between wanting to be something that I'm not, and just being happy with who I am.........At this point in my life I'm finally coming to a place where I can be content in this moment. It's hard because our culture teaches us that we should always be striving towards something else - being thinner, tanner, our hair should look a certian way(if it's straight, we want curly, if it's curly we want straight etc.), our clothes should be a certain brand, our makeup should always be done etc. etc. etc......If we aren't these things then we won't be loved or appreciated.........Definitely not a good mentality to have, but something that is ingrained in us as children and throughout adulthood we are forced to continue to face. I have decided that today I am NOT going to buy into that mentality. Today I'm going to be at peace with where I'm at and not expect more.
I guess some of this has come from my daily yoga practice where I have taken time out to just relax and love myself. Before everything was always so stressful and so focused on getting things "accomplished" and now I take just an hour out of my day to quiet my mind and tell myself positive things that help remind me that God created me EXACTLY the way I am and that He never intended me to be/look any differently than I am right now.
I know that I still tend to judge myself based on past pictures or weights or measurements that I once had, but each day I feel myself growing closer to finding contentment......
Mantra: Today I will love myself for the gift of life that God has given me.